This is a recent video I found very interesting, discussing an idea of a link between being autistic (especially high masking) and ego death. Does the video resonate with you? What do you think?
I’ve had that moment* though I’m pretty sure I have Schizoid Personality Disorder, not Autism. Though the key difference for me I’d say is that I never really had an identity. That feeling didn’t do anything for my isolation or lack-of-purpose though. I mean, unless someone wants to cryo my head and try to put me in a cyborg brain pod.
*= particularly more of a philosophical thing for me, things aren’t literally one but there is vertical (individual organisms) and horizontal (groups) cooperation (organizations too, but they seem prone to dysfunction). Particularly in situations that should be a positive-sum game, not cooperating seems like tripping yourself.
I feel the same thing of never really having an identity.
